and i got my defenses when it comes to your intentions for me
So this week has been boring so far. I had a long weekend which I spent the majority of doing things that I couldn't get done during my super-long work weeks as of late. I did catch up on sleep, which was nice. Now I am doing the midnight to 8am shift again, so my sleep schedule is all kinds of fucked up and my sleep and dreams are all wonky. I toss and turn and have weird dreams. I don't like it. It makes me grumpy and extremely irritable.
I feel bad--I only said one thing to Nailz today and it was mean. Well, what I said wasn't mean, but the tone of voice was pretty icy and I think the look on my face was one that wished it could kill. She didn't even ask anything that should've irritated me, but I couldn't control it. I don't even know why I felt so wrathful for those few moments. *sighs* I hate my work--I know that is what is doing this to me.
I've been hiding too lately. You know how sometimes you just want to be by yourself with no interruptions? I've had my ringer turned off and I've been ignoring messages unless they have something to do with work. I guess I know that when I get into these mood swings it is just best to take a step away from people, or someone is going to get hurt. I can be very bitter and vehement sometimes, even when I don't feel that way.
Ok, well, there's my soul for today. I had meant to blog more often this week, but it is probably for the best while I go through my ultra-bitch mode anyway.
Blood Moon: Oct. 27th