i'd like to say it was clear to me--love triangle geometry
So I am back from campus with a very disappointed outlook on my career search. I talked to my favorite and most trusted professor about becoming a professor. He gave me a very honest answer regarding my potential in that career field. I guess I am glad that he was honest and didn't just blow sunshine up my ass, but now I feel pretty clueless. And I know that I am young *rolls eyes* and I have a while to decide what I really want to do with my life, but at the same time I feel lost. Everything I want to do requires higher education above a Bachelor's degree. WHY?! *is being dramatic* But really...I don't want to be stuck being a data entry drone and clerk for the rest of my life. I don't know what I want. The whole purpose of this class is to find what you think you might want to do with your life and career--yet here I am, more lost than before I started. At least when I started I had an idea and I even felt half-way inspired to follow through on my plans. Now I find myself with very little motivation to even finish my bachelor's degree. *heavy sigh* And to make me feel even more lost, I have to write a 3-5 page "career and life plan" by the end of the week as well as finish last week's assignment (discussion questions and career report #2), take the final exam and submit my resume for grading by Friday. I am so screwed. How the hell can I write a goddamn career and life plan when I don't know what the hell is going to happen tomorrow? We're supposed to include personal, as well as career, goals in our plan. She wants stuff like marriage, kids, house, education, job, etc. "A well-rounded view of how you would like your future to be" is what she says. Bull-shit. One thing I've learned thus far from life is that plans don't mean a goddamn thing in reality. Sure, they're nice to have and they can be good guidelines and keep you "motivated" (insert dramatic eye roll here), but I say they're crap.
Other than that, I am ok, I guess. I got a lot of sleep last night, so that's a plus. I am well rested. Um...so, I've already violated what every mother tells her children: if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. Well, I just blew that rule to hell.