no phone, no phone. i just want to be alone today.
So today was a crap day. Yesterday was pretty much a crap day, too. Even so, I was in a pretty good mood when I came home from work. I actually got to see Nailz for a bit before she went to bed. But then something clicked and all of a sudden, the entire day felt like a complete waste.
I suppose it doesn't help that I'm broke. Absolutely fucking broke. I have bought my mother's Christmas presents, but haven't even ventured into gifts for my sister, father, niece and Nailz. I am broke because November was a shit month all except for 2 days. My last day at my old job was the 31st of October. I started my new job on the 4th. I got sick the second week and missed 3 days of work, then there was Thanksgiving--another 2 days of unpaid work. SO--basically, I worked 14 days last month. That (along with having to pay for the doctor's appointment in full (love having no insurance)) is why I am broke. Last week was the first week I have actually worked 5 full days in a row since October.
It's not all gloom and doom, but nothing good comes to mind, either. OH! Here's a good thing: the first of the last 4 classes I need to complete to get my degree starts in less than a month. Not to mention that by mid-February, I will have my taxes filed and (hopefully) a big refund on the way. I'm pretty sure I made less than $20,000 this year.
And now for something completely different...
Have you ever had that feeling that you are honestly losing your mind? Not losing your mind as in going crazy, but as literally misplacing the functional part of your brain? I have lately been really absent-minded. For instance, I will be doing one thing, remember that I have to do something. I'll get up to go do the one thing, then remember something else while doing that thing. Next thing I know, an hour later--after stumbling upon the first thing by accident, I will sit down and finish it. I have 4 To Do lists tucked neatly under the keyboard right now--peaking out to remind me every time I see the keyboard that there actually is something productive I could be doing. Something productive compared to wasting hours away in front of a computer screen (which I most certainly did tonight--voice chatting with 3 high school boys and messaging 2 others for almost 2 hours *slaps own hand*).
I had a really good dream the other night. I posted it on Nailz's comments. It is kick ass! And I also want to say before I go to bed for the night that I am sorry if I haven't commented on everyone's blog. I have a hard time concentrating for more than a few minutes at a time, so I will try to read more tomorrow and comment. Ok, well, ciao!