become interested, and you will become interesting
With the taste of a cigarette still on my disappointed lips, I sit down to compose a blog entry I feel completely unenthused to write. I feel somehow obligated however. I am sort-of-kinda-but-not-really back on the smoking track. *sigh* I have one or two a day now. I know that after this pack is gone I will be quit again. I have no desire to smoke and don't even finish the cigarettes I light. It is merely cold-trained habit to smoke. I've actually been looking into hypnotism. I hear it is not that expensive and that it sometimes works for those who have no desire to smoke anymore, but need a little bit of extra edge. I will keep trying to quit (real efforts as I have done in the past and now) until I do.
I had some horrible dreams on Sunday night of this week. They left me feeling pretty shitty. They were the kind of dreams where you feel persecuted and ashamed and scolded like a child. I don't remember my dreams from last night, but they were also a little on the same track. I'm sure some of it has to do with the disappointment I feel in my most recent behaviors.
On the upside, I went shopping today. I thought it was going to be a major spree, but it turned out to be under a $100 total. Yay for me! Yay for self-control! Weee! I found a neat little Japanese import store in a mall that I usually avoid with fervor. I bought a Fruits Basket calendar and some buttons. This little shop heightened my excitement for the anime con coming up in less than 60 days. Still no complete costume, but I think I'll at least have my Kotoko up and running in time. If not, I'll just go as my cute and hyper self. *rolls eyes*
Next weekend, I will feel like a man with a small penis in the gym locker room. I have been invited to a huge, 3-day LAN party. I am very excited to go. I know my machine isn't quite top-of-the-line, but it's how you use it that counts. I'll frag the hell out of everyone! Yeah! *rawk star leap*
Well, I think that's about it. Here are some links I've gathered in the past few days. Enjoy!
Here is something that English majors may
enjoy. How interesting! *pushes glasses up on nose*
Largo finally realizes
women exist. I want my own Largo....*sighs dreamily*
And I
hope this is
a joke....