look at your face like you're killed in a dreamSo I had yet another nightmare in which my boss fires me for something I'm not guilty of, and in a most cruel and humiliating manner. I've just returned from a few days at my parents' place and I already have indigestion just thinking about going back to work. Honestly, I didn't want to come back at all - the lull of my hometown was soothing and three days there was definitely not enough time to make me want to come back home to the job that awaits me tomorrow. If it wasn't obvious before now, I really hate my job. My boss is a nightmare, but I just keep thinking that I could have it a lot worse, so I haven't looked for a new job. Tonight, while I was out for the last cigarette of the night (yes, I have re-started smoking, probably largely due to job stress), I came up with an action plan in the event that I get fired, so I feel a little bit better having a plan to fall back on - just in case.
Nailz finds this paranoia strange because I am (not trying to be pompous, but...) a very good worker and my co-worker could not do all of my work plus her own for any span of time that it would take for them to hire and train a new person. Also - I really haven't done anything that could get me fired - I've only been late 3 times this year and haven't abused my sick days. I don't leave early and I do all of my work in a timely and efficient manner, plus I have outstanding customer reviews to back all of it up. But I still just get this feeling...like my boss is just
waiting for me to screw up so she can fire me. *sigh*
I think it's time to start updating my resume and keep my options
wide open.