waiting in slow motion0758 hrs:I know it's a bit earlier than usual to start this. Today has already been very different than most days. For one, I was leaving the apartment at the time I normally am hitting snooze for the first time. Collin made me a cup of coffee this morning, so I had coffee for the road. I was so early for work that I couldn't even get in the building yet and then ended up walking in 5 minutes late anyway. >__<
You may wonder why all of these things occurred. Well, Baby (that's my car) needed a check up and I had to drop her off at the mechanic's this morning. Nailz has been kind enough to let me drive her car today. All of this was initiated by Baby's oil change a couple of weekends ago. You know how they do a quick inspection and then make recommendations? Well, one deficiency they noted was that the right axle seal was leaking - whatever that means. I hear the word axle and think to myself, "Maybe that should be checked out," you know? Plus, the shop/oil change place keeps telling me I need all of these fluid flushes and I want my mechanic to check it out for me. I don't trust the shop guys - they just want to make a buck. The mechanic I like works out of his garage, is a certified technician and is a really honest guy (plus he charges 1/2 the cost of labor).
Because I couldn't get in to my work building so early, I went to Bonnie's (just up the block) for breakfast. Their prices have really jumped quite a bit. I paid almost $5 for 2 eggs and toast. I know that they're not doing it to make more money; they're doing it because they need to in order to pull through this economic slump. It's a nice mom n' pop shop, so I don't mind the price hike so much. AND - you can't beat that from the time I ordered to the time I got my food was scarcely 5 minutes and the bottomless cup of coffee kept me occupied during that time. Yay!
1026 hrs:Just got out of a team meeting. It was really sobering. Economic times are tough and worrisome. It made me give serious consideration to the thought that I possibly might be the most expendable person on staff. Since my return from deployment, I have been bounced around and never really given a firm job function. Without me, the office could easily function. The backlog would grow if I was gone, but in terms of actually still being able to function, I am not
needed. It made me wonder what I would do if I unexpectedly lost my job. I'm not a bad worker. I've always been very efficient, but that doesn't guarantee a job in this economy.
I've had too much coffee this morning. I can tell by how my stomach feels, my heart bests and by how much like a roller coaster my emotions become. Of course, when faced with uncertainty, I'm one of those people who can relax about things
only after I have come up with alternate upon alternate upon alternate plans.
1538 hrs:I am glad that the work day is almost over. It has felt extraordinarily long. I am sleepy and hope I can avoid taking a nap tonight. Tonight is the first night since before Christmas that there is lap swim at the community center, so I'm hoping to go lap swimming. I just hope that I don't get lazy and say, "meh."
Anywho - best post this. Is my ambivalence apparent? :-P
PLAYLIST:
Album: KinKi Kids - Disc 2 of 39 (x 5!!)
random iTunes on CD
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