we were easy lovers, hardly friends
July 9, 2013 (火)
Q: Today was delightful because _______.
A: I recovered a bit from the weirdness fiasco that was/is asking out a coworker...And I practiced kyudo.
July 10, 2013 (水)
Q: When was the last time you spoke to your parents?
A: Hrm. About three weeks ago? It's pretty normal to only talk to them about once a month. (But boy is that going to change!)
July 11, 2013 (木)
Q: If you were a literary character, who would you be?
A: If I were to be dramatic, I would say Hamlet's Ophelia. I feel as if I'm going a bit off the rails and my most recent office crush crashing and burning doesn't help. I don't think I'll end up like Ophelia though. (I'm not that serious about this guy...)
July 12, 2013 (金)
Q: ____________ is perfect.
A: Taylor Swift's "Story of Us" is perfect for what is going on with the office guy...
July 13, 2013 (土)
Q: What are you sentimental about?
A: A lot of things if the mess in the living room is any indication. I'm in the middle of packing. It's hard to decide what makes the cut. It's also not fun or pretty.
July 14, 2013 (日)
Q: Do you have a secret? More than one?
A: I mostly just have one big secret. But I might have a fewer small ones that I wouldn't know until I didn't tell them.
July 15, 2013 (月)
Q: What is your heroic downfall? Your Achilles' heel?
A: Too much empathy?
July 16, 2013 (火)
Q: Are you wearing socks?
A: Nope. But I was earlier in the evening. But all day - nope.
July 17, 2013 (水)
Q: How can you help?
A: By being more compassionate and stopping to consider a person's story.
July 18, 2013 (木)
Q: What are the ingredients for a perfect day?
A: Getting up early, but feeling rested. Going on a photo adventure, eating at a good place with a friend, and time at home to do daily chores.
July 19, 2013 (金)
Q: What do you need to throw away?
A: Too many things. I've gotten in the habit of taking pictures of stuff and then throwing it away, but it still takes a lot of time and energy.
July 20, 2013 (土)
Q: Does anything hurt today?
A: Physically - my sides hurt. My right side has hurt for months, so that's not really new...
Random Ramble:
Today I moved my aquarium and 11 fish to a Japanese friend's house. It was a 60-liter tank with guppies, tetras, a zebra loach and an algae eater. I'm really going to miss it. My house is so quiet now without the hum of the filter. I think the new owners are going to really love it, though. And I hope they take good care of it. It's just another thing I have to let go.
A couple of months back when I started to think about what to take home with me and what not to, I got some good advice from a friend (who had gotten it from one of her friends): "Lugging things around the world is mostly an exercise in letting go."
I already have two heavy-duty plastic trunks full of stuff to send home. This is just about the same amount that I brought with me four years ago. Outside of that, I know I will have at least one box of books, a box of paper mementos (tried with all my emotional might to toss them, but instead all I can do is thin them out) and a big international suitcase with my summer wardrobe and other immediate necessities in it. For having lived here for four years and having taken at least two long trips every year, I'd say I've done pretty well. Still - I feel as if I could do more.
Some part of me doesn't want to do any more packing. The house is slowly but surely starting to look like I don't live here. I've had the past week off of work and every day I've found it hard to get out of bed - denying that I really have to get up and start back in on packing and moving. It's as if I think that staying in bed will somehow make the time stand still and I can stay here longer; stay the same.
Also on my mind is that yesterday was officially my last paycheck. Whoa. I have to admit that not knowing when or how I will get another paycheck is pretty scary at this age. Probably not as scary as if I had a family, but still. I haven't voluntarily been without a job since I started working part time in high school. That's over 17 years of working, 11 of those years have been spent working full-time, 9 of them as a salaried employee with benefits. Just...wow. Well, I guess you could call this my mid-life crisis. At least I'm going back to school to change careers and not just buying a really fancy sports car and making my friends and family shake their head in wonderment.
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