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February 1, 2014 (土)
Q: What is your resolution for tomorrow?
A: To finish tidying and then vacuum my room.
February 2, 2014 (日)
Q: Who do you live with?
A: Mom and Dad. Also Murphy, Flower and Ludwig. (Cat, cat, dog respectively.)
February 3, 2014 (月)
Q: On a scale of one to ten, how sad are you? Why?
A: Three. There's not much to be sad about right now. I'm mostly tired...
February 4, 2014 (火)
Q: Outside, the weather is ________.
A: Cold (2F, but feels like -17F) and windy with light snow. We are under a windchill advisory.
February 5, 2014 (水)
Q: What are you obsessively listening to?
February 6, 2014 (木)
Q: Are you seeking contentment or excitement?
A: I think you can have both. And that's what I want.
February 7, 2014 (金)
Q: What are three things you have to buy?
A: One of those rubber finger things to protect my thumbs while working, natural bore oil for work and a lap desk.
Random Ramble:
I know I've written here before (at least a little bit) about a guy I've been crushing on since August. Well, I asked him to go out with me sometime. That was back in December and we still haven't gone out even though I've inquired a few times. He seemed pleased that I had asked him back in December, but as things went on, I started to think maybe he wasn't as interested in me as I was in him. Well, I am correct it turns out. And while it feels good to be right (feels triumphant in some ways, even), it does leave an aftertaste of sadness. You see, I was hoping I was wrong.
This time, I didn't do the asking face-to-face. I thought that maybe if I asked him out on a date over text messaging, it would make it so he could be more honest with me, but it turns out not. He basically said, "I'm so busy right now so I'm going to be really lame until the end of March". Uh huh. We all know what this means. *can see the heads nodding* It really means "I'm so busy right now and I don't like you enough to make time for you." Because let's face it - if you like someone (REALLY like someone), no matter how busy you are, you will make time for them. And if you were honestly busy on the day of the suggested date, you would suggest another date when you could probably squeeze in some time. But he didn't do that. So now I know.
I didn't want him to think that this kind of vague answer (it's not even a blow off, really) is ever okay, I knew I had to call him on it. I told him, "I understand you're trying not to hurt my feelings, but you can be straight with me and tell me you're not interested. We can still be friends even though you're going to be lame. *wink*"
It maybe wasn't the most mature answer I could have given, or the nicest, but this dude needs to know that it is not nice to string someone along. Not cool, dude. Just be honest and everything will move on. So yeah....I'm moving on. Too bad I will still have to see him every day at class, though. Meh. *shrugs*
I have to give credit where credit is due - I would not be on the honesty kick, nor would I have just practiced what I preach if it weren't for my friends who counseled me to be honest. Because really, if you don't want to be shitty to other people, you just have to be honest.
And after talking to Nailz for a bit, she recommended
this song to me. It helped me get out any of the anger or disappointment about being strung along. But let's end on a calmer, wiser note:
"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours." - Baz Luhrman
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