sometimes i feel like i am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibility however it may roll*heavy sigh* So these past few weeks have been ~stressful~.
I returned to work on August 4th. I'm only in my 2nd week working and already I remember why I didn't want to work there anymore. In my 2nd week working and I'm already dreaming of winning the lottery - how sad.
It is hard to describe, but I'll attempt it anyway: Lately, I find myself feeling super anxious about things. I am constantly thinking of all the things that drive me crazy - like the neighbors upstairs that are super noisy all the time. For example, last night I had to go up and knock on their door at midnight because I couldn't sleep with all the racket they were making above me. They claimed it wasn't them and blamed the people who live next to door to them. Yeah - like I'm that stupid to believe it. To quote Judge Judy, "Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's raining!"
So the noise from up above doesn't help my jangled nerves. While we're on the subject of where we live, Nailz's and my lease expires at the end of October and we have made the decision to sign on for another 12 months. This decision was hard to make, as I am applying to the JET Program this fall and if I get accepted, I will leave next July or August. If that were to happen, it would leave time left on the 12-month lease. We have come up with a plan that will kind of work around that though, so that's a bit of a relief.
Also - the whole thought of applying to JET and actually getting in is terrifying the piss out of me at the moment. 0_o I feel like panicking heavily, just to get it out of my system for a bit. *tries to breathe deep*
Labels: life bitch, true angst