maybe run from the darkness in the night*
I have been in kind of a funk the last couple of weeks that I just can't seem to get out of. After chatting with Nailz in the kitchen this evening, I realized that it's not anxiety that I'm feeling. I'm feeling restless, yet paralyzed. I know that there is a lot that needs to be done before I move, but it just doesn't really register yet. Instead of sitting myself down to think about what needs to be done when, I just keep distracting myself. If I keep this up, it will eventually catch up to me. I really need to sit still for a couple of hours and work out how and when everything needs to be done. I do feel like I can step forward out of this funk soon, though. Ever notice how sometimes just putting your finger on what's going on can help you to break through?
Anywho - enough seriousness. I would like to announce this week's Grocery Titan as the 4 lb bag of Jasmine Rice coming in at $4.63, just barely ahead of the bottle of pickled ginger at $4.39. The rest of my groceries were pretty reasonable. Of course, I only had 5 things. I felt really confident going to the store that I wasn't forgetting any items on my list. Ah...but of course I did. *laughs at self* I needed to get more coffee beans. Will have to stop tomorrow after work just to make sure I have them.
As a last note, this week's Grocery Saver was the bunch of 5 bananas coming in at a mere $1.20. Yay for bananas!!
Had a good weekend, for the most part. Felt really quite inert, but guess I did get a little bit done. Why does the urge to purge belongings always hit at about 10pm on a work night? Maybe I'll go through just one small box to make myself feel better.
*U2 - Running to Stand StillLabels: grocery savers, grocery titans, life bitch
sometimes i feel like i am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibility however it may roll*heavy sigh* So these past few weeks have been ~stressful~.
I returned to work on August 4th. I'm only in my 2nd week working and already I remember why I didn't want to work there anymore. In my 2nd week working and I'm already dreaming of winning the lottery - how sad.
It is hard to describe, but I'll attempt it anyway: Lately, I find myself feeling super anxious about things. I am constantly thinking of all the things that drive me crazy - like the neighbors upstairs that are super noisy all the time. For example, last night I had to go up and knock on their door at midnight because I couldn't sleep with all the racket they were making above me. They claimed it wasn't them and blamed the people who live next to door to them. Yeah - like I'm that stupid to believe it. To quote Judge Judy, "Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's raining!"
So the noise from up above doesn't help my jangled nerves. While we're on the subject of where we live, Nailz's and my lease expires at the end of October and we have made the decision to sign on for another 12 months. This decision was hard to make, as I am applying to the JET Program this fall and if I get accepted, I will leave next July or August. If that were to happen, it would leave time left on the 12-month lease. We have come up with a plan that will kind of work around that though, so that's a bit of a relief.
Also - the whole thought of applying to JET and actually getting in is terrifying the piss out of me at the moment. 0_o I feel like panicking heavily, just to get it out of my system for a bit. *tries to breathe deep*
Labels: life bitch, true angst