October 2, 2013 (水)
Q: What do you crave?
A: Sleep. Even though it is my own fault I don't get enough of it.

October 3, 2013 (木)
Q: What was the last bad movie you watched?
A: "Bridesmaids" was bad, but not too bad message/moral-wise.

October 4, 2013 (金)
Q: In three words, describe your love life.
A: DoA: Dead on Arrival.

October 5, 2013 (土)
Q: What question makes you anxious?
A: Where do you want to work?

October 6, 2013 (日)
Q: Do you have any new friends?
A: A couple? Kind of? Not good friends yet, but who knows.

October 7, 2013 (月)
Q: Are you happy with your choices today?
A: All but one really. I shouldn't have jumped right into a spinning class after years of being sedentary. Oi vey.

October 8, 2013 (火)
Q: What is your biggest dream?
A: Realistic? Oh, who am I kidding - true dreams are never realistic. I want to be a back-up singer for someone famous.

October 9, 2013 (水)
Q: You want a new _____.
A: manicure. The enamel/lacquer manicure I got was very sturdy, but it's starting to look worn. I don't want anything big.

October 10, 2013 (木)
Q: Write down the name of someone you had a good conversation with recently.
A: Ms. R - my old band director. I visited her on Monday and it was great to see her for a few minutes.

October 11, 2013 (金)
Q: What makes you feel wonderful?
A: Singing and cleaning - sometimes at the same time.

October 12, 2013 (土)
Q: One word for today.
A: Tidying.

October 13, 2013 (日)
Q: You have no patience for ________________.
A: moseying. I like walking at a quick pace. Moseying is usually a waste of time.

October 14, 2013 (火)
Q: What expression do you overuse?
A: Hm. Well, probably I use the word "like" too much (like most Americans I would guess), but in writing, I put "XD" for everything.  XD

October 15, 2013 (火)
Q: How much time do you spend commuting?
A: 45-50 minutes each way, well, maybe closer to 55-60 minutes...Uf da. At least it is all highway miles.

Random Ramble:
*Today's blog title is courtesy of Emily Dickinson. It has been running through my head since I woke up this morning. You see, I've had a crush on a guy in my class since pretty much day one. The more I get to know him the more I like him. There's just a couple of problems: he's much younger than me and he seems to be interested in someone else (not in our class). But I really like talking to him and I can't help but want to talk with him outside of class. Because I am convinced that I don't stand a chance, I've tried to not talk to or interact with him much in the past few weeks - I don't want my crush to worsen; I don't want to be crushed when I find out he's dating someone else. And for a while I convinced myself that I could just be happy with being his friend, but I don't think I can to be honest. (Isn't that selfish of me?)

In an effort to move my focus away from him, I joined an online dating website. And while it was interesting for the first few days (ran into someone I went to high school with on the site!), the magic has already worn off. I've done a good job of not thinking about my crush, but just when I start to feel like I'm ready to put my growing feelings aside, I have a dream about him. I've dreamed about him so many times since I met him - it is actually disturbing to me. I had a dream about him last night and when I woke up, I sighed in resignation and realized "the heart wants what it wants". So this is me surrendering to this crush. I'm not going to stop talking to or interacting with him - and I'm going to ask to hang out outside of class and see what happens. I don't like to pine endlessly with no resolution. If this is what my heart (or in this case subconscious?) wants, I will indulge it - it just can't blame me when it ends in disappointment.