Down the Rabbit Hole with the Semi-Evil Squirrel

one more robot learns to feel*

Ah....today is one of those "f*ck it" days where even the slightest discouragement makes me want to just say "f*ck it". I'm moody and I have a sneaking suspicion as to why. It feels like it wasn't that long ago that I was feeling this same way - it certainly doesn't feel like it has been 3 weeks. Suck. Also put into a bit of an irritable mood by the mere fact that it is Monday and I really don't feel like coming to work anymore. Only 11 work days left after today. Really will only work out to 10 because I'm sure my last day will be nothing but goofing around. Plus, if I am this distracted now, I can only imagine that coming to work will soon only be going through the motions and my mind and everything else will be, well, elsewhere.

In other, lighter news, This weekends Grocery Titan title goes to the SaraLee ovenroasted turkey breast that I bought at the deli counter totaling $4.98 for .57 lbs of goodness. Normally, I would scoff at paying so much for lunch meat, but don't really have sandwiches that often any more and figured it would be ok to splurge here and there. So that was it. If it weren't for that, the Grocery Titan would have been the sandwich bread rounds (8 pack) for $3.00 even.

As per usual, the bananas I bought came in as the Grocery Saver for the week. You just can't beat the nutrition in bananas at 53 cents a pound.

Guess that is about it. I'll quit boring you with the mundane details of my life and let you get on with the week. ;-P

*The Flaming Lips - One More Robot - Sympathy 3000-21

Labels: grocery savers, grocery titans, grumpy, work

we move a mile a minute just to keep ourselves in it*

0849 hrs:
I think it is a crime that today is only Thursday. The disappointment at waking up to realize it was not Friday was almost visceral. Though the sun is shining, there is a cloud following me around today. I feel like being a complete killjoy just to have company in my self-induced misery. Ha! Actually, I'm in a pretty good mood, but I still feel like being mean for no good reason. My Mr. Hyde, so to speak, is trying to run rampant today. Nothing but trouble, I tell you.

1453 hrs:
I am super!distract-able right now. I started feeling drowsy after lunch and now I'm just loopy and distracted. I feel like I've gotten absolutely nothing done since before lunch. The boss is out, so we all have been chatting while doing work. In my case, I haven't really gotten anything done. Complete space case right now.

Mr. M is out sick today. I noticed yesterday that he was sniffling and had a slight cough, so it is not surprising. I dream of calling in sick. It's been since ... *goes to check* mid-February that I called in sick and that has been my only sick day this year.

1609 hrs:
Totally got distracted. Now it is time to go home for the day - Huzzah!!

*Stroke 9 - City Life

Labels: blather, distracted, grumpy, work

follow my ruin*

1130 hrs:

Allowing myself a blog post created at work today. It has been a really stressful today at work. Things have been happening that we only wish were an April Fool's joke. Upsetting things - BUT, I still have a job (as far as I know anyway).

It seems that the last two days have been nothing but super-stressful.

I woke up late this morning. First, I woke up at 6:14am thinking that it was really 7:14am and had hit the snooze too many times, so that was a near-heart attack. Then, because I thought I was late, I must have shut off my alarm entirely, so when I went back to sleep (because I had 3 snoozes left, dammit), there was no alarm to wake me up. I woke up at 7:05am and the first word out of my mouth was "shit". (Well, that's expected, isn't it?) Days starting with the word "shit" are usually not the best. And so the day has been pretty mean. In the end I was only 1/2 hour late for work, but I stayed a 1/2 hour late last night, so maybe my boss will let me slide on this one. I'll have to talk to her, but really - she might not be my boss any more. How f*cked up is that?

I just keep telling myself to calm down and take it easy, but...well...I'm just too tired from all of this recent work stress that I just don't have the energy to think rationally about all this stuff anymore. All of this "right-sizing" and re-organizing is total bullshit. Where do employers get off with jerking their employees around all the time. Who wants to work for a place like that?

My stress level is not helped any by the fact that soon I will be finding out the results of the JET interview. Pretty sure I probably won't hear anything until next week, but just the fact that it is now officially April and the website says the results will be announced in "early April" makes my stomach twist and turn. Also, I have drill this weekend. You know what's on the training schedule? NADA. Of course, they should just write in "thumb up ass time" because that's what we'll end up doing.

Right now, I wish I could take a vacation day from my life.

1555 hrs:
HA. HA. *drips with sarcasm* We've been punk'd. Jerks. Happy April Fools Day!! All the work drama for the first 6 hours of my work day was an April Fools joke. *despite being embarrassed about reaction, is still very relieved to still have a job*

*Royksopp - Follow My Ruin

Labels: April Fools, grumpy, not funny, work bitch

waiting through your whole life*

1034 hrs:
While one of the programs I work in is being slow, thought I would start today's post. My cow-orkers are driving me nuts today and I am crabby. It seems inevitable because not only do I have drill this coming weekend, but I am apparently suffering from acute moodiness due to PMS. Days like this, I just want to crawl under the desk and not come out until it's time to go home.

Biggest arrow pointing to PMS? I feel teary because a couple of the systems that I work in are running super slow and I feel like I can't get anything done. I can't decide whether crying over the slow-running systems is better than putting my fist through the computer screen. *laughs at self*

Another big arrow? I felt irritable during Yoga last night. YOGA! The thing that is supposed to be all peaceful, actually irritated me a bit.

I suppose it also doesn't help that I am tired again today. Even though I haven't been getting very much sleep, the quality of sleep hasn't been very good either. I toss and turn a lot and wake up frequently to my mind racing. I think tonight will be a sleeping pill night. I can't remember if I have any though, so might have to stop by and get some from Walgreens on the way home from work. Wouldn't want to be out and then have another night of tossing and turning.

I still have the headache that started yesterday (another irritating factor). It gets stronger here and there, but is ever-present.

I need to take my car to a repair shop today. I'm hoping they don't tell me the estimate of what the bill is going to be until tomorrow or the next day - I'm sure I would cry today hearing large numbers, or even cry out of relief if the repairs were not that expensive (which is kind of doubtful when it comes to repairing the electrical system).

Bah. Maybe should stop blogging now. Mood is going from bad to worse really quickly. *le sigh*

1120 hrs:
Ok, so one last bitch before I quit venting for the day. I received the email below from one of my cow-orkers who is always forwarding crap to everyone in the office (well, except to the boss that is):

HOW TO LOCK YOUR CAR

HOW TO LOCK YOUR CAR Snopes approved.
I locked my car --- as I walked away I heard my car door unlock I went back and locked my car
again three times. I looked around and there were two guys sitting in a car in the fire lane next to the store.

When I looked straight at them they did not unlock my car again. How to lock your car
safely: While traveling my son stopped at a roadside park. He came out to his car less than 4-5 minutes later and found someone had gotten into his car, and stolen his cell phone, laptop computer, GPS navigator briefcase.....you name it ... Called the police and
since there were no signs of his car being broken into- the police told him that there is a device that robbers are using now to clone your security code when you lock your doors on your car using your key-chain locking device. They sit a distance away and watch for
their next victim. They know you are going inside of the store, restaurant, or bathroom and have a few minutes to steal and run. The police officer said ...to be sure to manually lock
your car door-by hitting the lock button inside the car, that way if there is someone sitting in a parking lot watching for their next victim it will not be you. When you hit the lock button on your
car upon exiting...it does not send the security code, but if you walk away and use the door lock on your key chain- it sends the code through the airwaves where it can be stolen, something totally new to us...and real ... Be aware of this and please pass this note on..look how many times we all lock our doors with our keys...just to be sure we remembered to lock them....and bingo someone have our code...and whatever was in the car...can be gone. Be safe, be healthy everyone.

OK - First off - just because it says "Snopes approved" does not make it true, in fact I would be even more suspicious. If you had actually taken a moment to check here, you would have seen that Snopes DOES NOT approve. You would've also found out that this email is irrelevant for any car that is newer than the mid-1990s. Thanks a lot office spammer - go shove it and your false, alarmist emails. I'm sick of that crap coming to my work address.

Also - links for my personal reference:
Ektagraphic film search results
REAL news about fraud

1624 hrs:
ETA: The office spammer sent out a correction email about the car locking email. But she only did that after one of my cow-orkers said aloud, "I wonder if this key fob thing is true?" Which prompted a true check into Snopes. *rolls eyes*

Alas - look at the time. Time for me to go home. I still have a headache. I can't wait to take something stronger than Ibuprofen when I get home. D:

Labels: cow-orkers, grumpy, link blogging, PMS